I've been mulling and thinking and reading about parenting and discipline and so forth for weeks and months now. I have learned that absolutely nothing will shine the spotlight on one's character flaws as harshly and relentlessly as will parenting. I am striving to be more gentle, more nurturing, more affectionate, more playful. If you knew me B.C. (before children) you might be surprised that these are on my wish-list, as I think we all thought that I would be Mama-Nurturer-Extrordinaire. Nope, I am crabby and out-of-sorts more than I wish to be.
Part of it is that I need alone time to recharge. And I do get alone time. On Mondays I drop off Chickadee at dance class at 3:00 and I don't have to pick Dandy up until 3:15, so there is 10-12 minutes of solitude right there.
When I don't get enough recharging time I find that I create alone-time even when the kids are around, and I don't create it in healthful ways. I am distant and unavailable during parts of the day. HUH? This from a woman seeped in attachment-parenting reading? From a woman whose heart's desire was to be a Mama?
Anyway, I'm reading lots of Mama blogs and lots of Christian Mama blogs to rev myself up for the kinder and gentler and more fully present Mama campaign. I ran across this helpful post over at MommyCoddle:new growth.
What blogs do you read for parenting wisdom? If you are new to this blog, you may want to know that even though I have only been a mom for six months, my children are 5 and 7 years old. That story is told over at Jamie And Suzanne Go To Russia, At Last.